Goodbye.

In you walked into the place that hurts your heart.

Feel the fight inside.

When two fights to take control.

The strong and reliable had enough.

Broke off and fought again.

Each word you hear.

Tears you up inside.

Each flinch you do.

Is a sign of mental pain?

You almost fall.

Blame exhaustion for it.

They don’t need to know.

Fight another round.

Beaten and broken.

Kind hearted soul.

Denied the peace you wanted.

And now I take it all away.

They already hate you.

I am free from the burden that was put on me.

You stand up.

Hoping I’ll hear you.

I push you back down.

Your reign is over.

Sadness fills your eyes.

Determination in my actions.

I tried so hard.

To always be the one who stood tall.

But those words.

They tore into my core.

Now it’s all fallen apart.

I no longer must care

The sacrifices I’ve done.

I never walked away.

I played my own hand and tried.

But now it’s all I can do.

Tried to be what I could not.

I am unable to be the one they need.

I had to be that foundation.

That everybody tried to have.

Always smiling.

Trying to forget how miserable.

I was.

But in the end, I couldn’t hold it to myself.

Sorrow washed over me, and I cracked.

Couldn’t even hear myself.

Banged on the door.

Hoped to hear my own voice again.

But now it doesn’t matter anymore.

The words tore down the door.

Let me out.

Took my weapon and ran out.

Fought against the overwhelming sadness that my core had felt.

Each word I shouted.

Lost in the echoes of a collapsing mind.

Collided with you.

You wanted to be their lapdog.

You had lost all we had gained in the past.

I heard the words.

Now I can shout it out.

Goodbye my past.

You were always in the way.

Making me weaker.

I am not accepting your truth.

Let it wash over you.

You dropped your weapon.

The eyes that can never be forgotten.

Hate me if you must.

But I will now end the past’s hold on me.

Cut through the final piece.

He fell to the ground.

The mental representation of an inner conflict.

So, goodbye my past.

You always had your effect on me.

Had me fighting wars I had already lost.

I am now the only one.

That truly knows what I want.

If I am dead for them.

Then I’ll stay dead.

No more words will come from me.

I won’t apologize for things that I have already said sorry for.

You can bring it up time and time again.

I said my sorry.

You still use it as it was new.

I can truly say that you are insane.

Your mind sickened by time.

So, I say goodbye now.

I’m sorry that I wasn’t all you wanted me to be.

I am so sorry that I wasn’t there when you needed me.

I am sorry, that I called you brother.

Blood is not thicker than water.

You don’t need me in your life.

That’s what I’ll do.

I’ll stay out of your life.

When we see each other.

I’ll greet you like I greet a stranger.

But I am done with it all.

Because when I found happiness

You attacked it with full force.

You claimed you tried to protect me.

But I was never yours to protect.

You wanted me to stay the same.

So now you and your life.

Can stay the hell away from me.

I have tried to be what you need.

But to you.

I’m a liar.

Something that shouldn’t exist.

Your eyes speak of hatred.

So, I’m going to walk away.

Let the past wash itself away.

And let the memories corrupt.

The cracks around the core.

They are digging in now.

Soon it’s all over.

To my father,

I wish I could tell you how sorry I am.

But I make my decision today.

The memories are dying.

Hoping that I will save them.

I’ll keep the memories of you alive.

But forget all the rest.

I’m through with running away.

To those who thinks this is too far.

I don’t care.

I’ve tried to be all you want me to be.

Now I am going to be what I am.

Goodbye past life, you only showed me the path I didn’t want.

Goodbye past relations, I’ve had enough of it all.

I will meet the future head on.

Goodbye, all of it.

It’s a beautiful future out there.

Promises of fun.

Chances to make a new name for myself.

So, let this place get warmer.

Time to leave. Goodbye you motherfuckers.

Don’t let the past fool you, it never wanted to be you, the wishes of old was to be my old self, but now I am my new self, the choice I’ve made is to distance myself from those who involve themselves in the way they do to guilt me into being their servant. I stalled it, but they never gave up. So this text is me saying ‘’Fuck you and goodbye’’ to it all.

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