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Av Alexander - 3 juli 2018 18:45

There was a time when my mind was alright, when the cracks in the walls weren't there, but that time is long gone, what you see now is what it is, the cracks have broken apart the walls and made them crumbled down, I no longer wonder how or why this happened, I've fought it at every turn, now I know it's all because of you, the devil in disguise, who met death that fateful day, we both escaped with scars, but while I was burning down, you took your chance to corrupt my mind, you thought me to be an easy target and now you're the one being the target. We saw each other miles away, we knew we would clash one day and now when the skeletons in my closet have made me realize it, then there's no more tolerance to show you, no more compassion for your strife, I've been beaten and broken by life all around me, but I am still standing. There's no way out for you, you dug your grave and now you are being buried by your own lies, I'm the one who is getting away with this, the one you tricked and had beaten, now I stand above you smiling, I am caught in the never ending cycle of self destruction, you were the clever liar, you tricked us all for your own gain and now you've screwed up and find yourself regretting it, there's only us left now, you and me, all the others have faded with time, all because of your actions, don't you ever complain to me about it, while you decided to run away, I We were the ones who fought the chaos you released by running, now I am the last one left and you only blame me. You must have thought that I was weaker than you, but I stood strong, my mind is broken and my heart is scarred, but I'm still standing above you, the tolerance for you is all gone though, I will destroy you and take away what you earned by running, the only true traitor was you. You thought it to be easy, you took all the shortcuts there was, while I watched them all fade away from my view, the pain was too much, but I still found a way to fight and now I am here, I may be broken and hated, I no longer care, I am the one who is still standing.
You came back expecting us to still be there, when you found the two remaining, your fear turned to hatred, I wasn't supposed to still be here, you expected me to be gone, yet there I was, broken and beaten, but still standing. The trio undefeated reunited, fighting alongside each other, all odds against us, but somewhere this went wrong, the trio was shattered, our battles weren't over, now we had to destroy each other and you threw the first stone, you tried to manipulate us, to get what you wanted, but this ended with a meltdown and many still say that out of the three of us, I did the right thing, but after such a conflict, it felt so wrong, to be the one to stand, while our friend faded away and now that I know you had a thing to do with it, I can't accept you as human, the trio had died, the devil in disguise and the psycho still stands, I have lost more than enough, but you find ways to lose more, both stubborn like mules, none willing to stand down, so I took my chance and brought it to an end, the chaos stopped and they all went silent, now we stand in a world dark as night and no sound left for us to hear, the only thing is the crack between us, the two remaining of a whole group of friends and the words ring through my head, I'm the one marked with the scenes of their passings, while you smile about your ability to shut off emotions, so I suppose this is what we see, the devil and psycho, stuck in a war, we will never be able to stand each other, I will always be there to stop you, because I am the one with a broken mind and a heart that refuses to back down, nobody can conquer my mind, but I am the one marked for something else.

Av Alexander - 3 juli 2018 18:33

Words spoken to me, I never meant for it to get this far, so now I'm saying no to the past, I never rested, it would haunt me, but now I speak the words I want to speak, no, I'm not going to regret anymore, I made my mistakes, but now I must repair it, your best option is to leave me alone, because there's no guilt left for things I couldn't stop, broken and scarred no longer, another word of hatred, I was brought to the end of the line, the price of my silence, was too much, I'm never giving up my voice, because I will speak against you, my words are my weapons, I can always find more ammunition, the more I speak, the less you affect me, if you knew I used to be silent, you'd probably be more surprised. Hate me if you want to, I don't need you to like me, your kind is a scourge, I stand against those that bothers me, doesn't matter to me if you had a bad childhood, if we start letting things pass because of your background, then maybe I should be allowed to annihilate those who hurt me? Fought my way through the hell I called my life, but for me it was just another day of misery, if you put yourself above others, lowering their worth to make yourself feel better, be prepared for the incidents that follows, because I will put you down, I'll use nothing more than words, no need for violence until you make it an issue for you to fight for your right to be more worth, before you'll know it, you will be alone, maybe you like that? My emotional state was unstable, my mindset was to destroy all my problems, but, now I realize that it's more than that, brought death to my mind, I ended up insane, then I thought became white noise, distorted, at the end of the day, my insanity isn't your typical insanity, it's my sanity, that you'd call insane. Freedom is back as the mindset of this once broken human being, I don't know what these words are trying to say, but I'm free from the corruption of those who sought to destroy me. 

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